Maybe the crisis is over. Just one more obstacle to blow up. I hope I've learned something. With my style of translation, I really have to be careful because lots of mistakes can creep in. But yes, they didn't give me the editing rules until the last moment, and they didn't tell me in advance there were problems with my stuff. However, as I've said already, being more careful takes more time. I say I don't have time to transform Opti, but then I spend half the morning playing Tower Defense. Why? Because it calms my brain. Not surprisingly, if I take a Xanax before working, I work much better. Working gives me a terrible performance anxiety that makes me so tired and despondent. I know the reasons but I haven't found a solution yet. I was already working on it so hard, and this hard criticism brought me back to square 1. But as I said, I've learned something. And I haven't lost all the passion for the topic. I only wish I didn't have this creeping feeling that I screw up every job I try. Well the key to my survival Was never in much doubt The question was how I could keep sane Trying to find a way out Things were never easy for me Peace of mind was hard to find And I needed a place to hide Somewhere I could call mine I didn't think much about it Till it started happening all the time Soon I was living with the fear everyday Of what might happen that night... Phil Collins, "No son of mine" |