I cannot get them out of my mind. I had at home a group of friends I've had a fallout with. But they were nice with me; only they kept jeering at the expense of the *other* groupd of friends. Who incidentally were on the phone with me right there and then and they, too, had no kind words about the others. Only, none of the groups realized they were practically on the phone with each other through me! And I was climbing mirrors not to let them understand this. All the while thinking "Why? we are here so nicely and I still love them so much, why must this be?"
Another part. I'm coming home on my bicycle (though it looks like Alassio). I take a shortcut through a bar because there was a mess on the street. Other girls do the same. The bar guy lets the first two pass, and then berates me. Of course, those were prettier than I! I call him an @$$hole and go out. He comes out after me, does he want to pick up a fight? I tell him flat that he did't do a nice thing, and go on to find my way through the mess on the street.
I'm doing some game like "Wheel of fortune" or something. It's on TV but at the same time it's written on a paper. There's a very difficult phrase to guess, but I'm making it... but time runs out and the letters start to appear! No! I want to guess it, and I try not to look at the letters...
And some days ago I dreamed about Richard. I'm still so sorry about having dumped him and Tracy from the RPG. It was necessary and sad like many of the things I'm doing lately. |